I assume that you have a feeling of no one is caring for you. It could have been resulted from series of disappointments in relationships or may be a recent problem with a person whom you loved very much. whatever the case may be you show signs of depression and going through a lot of emotional pain. You maybe feeling hopeless about your situation now but there is always a solution to any kind of problem. Since your situation and your mood could be overwhelming you maybe thinking in this way. This is not an end and if you consult a professional you will be able to break that pattern and see the changes yourself.