I understand your concern. The way to find out if you have intermittent explosive disorder or not is to undergo a complete evaluation with a psychiatrist. It may be due to having impulsive personally traits as well. It is easily manageable with appropriate therapy and if needed medicines so that dysfunction due to the same can be reduced and your quality of life will improve. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is also available.