Hello dear.
Good morning.
The description of ur sexual gratification can be
different from ur basic understanding of ur
society and culture around you, but it's not
abnormal to have such feelings and it's
absolutely normal to have erections.
Your sexual fantasies can be different so no
need to judge urself .
Then, What is abnormal in you ?
Ans ". GUILT ", this must not be present in ur
mind for every trivial issues. Guilt create a
State of conflicted mind. And a conflicted
mind cause tension and induce certain
behaviour and after performing this certain
behaviour again you will have guilt of
performing that behaviour . So ,you
understood it is dangerous LOOP that is
interlinked and cause a never ending chain
reaction.
Prolonged guilt can cause MOOD DISORDERS in
you , so unnecessarily don't induce stress in ur
body & mind.Discuss the same with ur parent or
siblings or any significant family member .
Next Steps
You can consult a Psychiatrist or
Neuropsychiatrist of ur choice and discuss ur
sexual orientation ,fantasy , habbits & act in
detail . Also get evaluated ur mood , emotions ,
thought & personality. Psychiatrist will also
assess ur other psychosocial stressors, family
factors and social factors. Mental state
examination will be appropriate to understand
ur current situation.
Health Tips
Don't criticize urself too much for the things
that could be normal .
Take a sleep of 7 to 8 hrs.
Before resolving ur conflicted mind with
significant family member or Psychiatrist ,
temporary withdraw ur sexual activities to avoid
unnecessary guilt and conflict.
Take care.
** Have a safe & peaceful day **