Hi Tammy,
you mentioned you have been bullied in childhood, so has it had any impact on your present life. please explain that in detail.
you have never had a boyfriend- you never got the opportunity to be in relationship or you didnt want to due to your own insecurites? first we need to work on these lines. Also if you girls are ready to mingle whats stopping you?
Next Steps
consult a psychologist offline or online