Hello dear, I can somewhat sense the psychological pain that you carry for the time being. However please keep in your mind always that suicide is not a solution. These are possibility temporary surges of emotions and feelings, you can let them pass by without succumbing to these. Please see if the issues between you and your partner can be resolved by you both. Else please seek help in dealing with these issues. In case both of you wish to resolve the issues, but are unable to do so please seek a couple therapy from a trained professional therapist.... However please be mindful of the fact that of you let this wave pass, you can come out stronger.. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future..