Dear client, I can empathise ur situation , it's hard and shocking but it is truth at the same time .ur question need lot of addressing on different spheres of life. But I can suggest u in short that if u can accept it , forgive it and forget it and move on which is a tuff job but u can try. But if that acceptance is causing fear and anxiety. Don't do it in hurry, give urself more space, give him more time to understand u and also realise his mistake . After reading all this if u need more addressing on the subject , I strongly recommend u to meet a psychiatrist / psychologist. I wish u best of luck.