Hi, thank you for writing here. You mentioned when situations go out of hand you get enraged. You could check with yourself how the situation going out of hand makes you feel (anger/ rage might not be the only emotion you feel. Rage can be a reaction but deep down you might have other feelings seeing a situation go out of hand). It might help to consult a psychologist either for online or offline sessions to get some guidance to process emotions you feel.
But if therapy isn't possible, you can journal (write down you thoughts and feelings). There are many different techniques to journal (you can look them up on youtube too). One technique that might help is to write a situation as it happened in detail (when, what exactly happened, who were involved, why it happened); then break down your thoughts at the time, your emotions ( everything you felt beside anger too); actions (here you can break it down to what you did and what consequences did you want through your action). It might help to atleast build more awareness towards what makes you react with rage.
Next Steps
You can connect for sessions with therapists online or offline. But here is my website (Psyche Bubbles- Therapy- https://www.psychebubbles-anweshabhattacharya.com/) you can reach out for online therapy. There are many good therapists on Practo too, you can reach to them too. Talking to someone might help you with the trust issues and feelings of insecurity too.
Take care!