Hi,
I understand what you are trying to say , thinking, wondering about the answers to these questions of life We are born in this world of things unknown, the answers you find are through living , creating your own meaning, by doing things that bring you joy, peace and increase your sense of connection to the world around you.
The questions, the thoughts you have do not have immediate answers it is part of the human experience.
It is alright to reflect on deep questions periodically, it helps you live a more meaningful life. Checking in with yourself understanding your self as you grow up , your sense of purpose, and your values . However if it is interfering in your daily life then talk to a Psychologist, therapy offers a place to express yourself , understanding the underlying reasons of your thoughts. It will help guide and manage your thoughts .
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist
Health Tips
Journaling can provide a lot of insight of your deepest thoughts, practice affirming, meditation and deep breathing exercises.