Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here.  Your suitation would have changed in the last 14 years and It's better to consult a doctor to recommend a medicine. On the other side, pls be aware that medicine will only help you in suppressing your emotions and gives temporary relief. Your deep rooted emotions are still there and that's is what causing you sleep issues. Sleep is the important factor for any physical health and I'd you miss that, you must be having other physical health issues as well. There are alternatives solutions available through Ayurveda and other behaviors therapy, dietary and few lifestyle changes to better manage your emotions and proper sleep. Feel free to reach out to me online for further evaluation and recommendation. If you discuss openly, a suitable solution that fits your body and mind can be explored.. All the best for your speedy recovery..