Dear human, thank you for sharing and reaching out. I understand that you're going through a difficult time but I appreciate you for reaching out for help, it takes courage. It sounds like you're feeling very low with no purpose in life, which every human would experience at some point in their life. It could be due to many reasons like past trauma events, negative life incidents like family, relationship, financial issues as you've mentioned, low self-esteem, bottled up emotions, etc of which only you could be aware of. To consciously unravel the reasons for your concerns, therapy is essential.
And therapists/mental health professionals also work on building self-esteem and confidence and I would be glad to help you in this.
Next Steps
Please book an appointment with me via practo, as we go about exploring your thought patterns and your purpose in life while figuring a beneficial way out of this.
Hope this helps :) Take care.