Hello, The description provided by you here is consistent with a negative emotional and mood state. The relational issues seem to be stemming out from your negativistic state of mind. However what is reasonably clear is that thus is an unhealthy state, and you should try to move out of this. Hence my suggestion for you is that you please seek a consultation with a Psychiatrist near you for detailed assessment and management. A detailed assessment will help you and the Psychiatrist understand various correlates of your condition and be able to help you better. Please be well assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment. Do not lose hope (do understand that losing hope is a part of your disease process). Do not hesitate or delay in seeking help. Do consult a Psychiatrist at the earliest. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.