Seems like you are very sensitive and emotional person. Appreciate your great quality of being brave to face situation. Somewhere down the line you are giving importance to people's reactions, because others opinion dominates yours. Analysing and acting on the respective situation would be wiser and feasible.  When you feel hurt, why not express your feelings assertively to the concerned person than swallowing the pain to yourself. By doing so you are not finding fault in others or blaming others.  Just express how you felt ONLY ABOUT THAT INCIDENT and nothing more, nothing less.  Move on by letting go of any past issues. Don't keep retrieving bitter thoughts time and again.