Hi Quite a lot on your mind. Its not very hard to evoke your lost self. You just need to decide and then get on with that. Right now take help of a professional for same. Let bygones be bygones. Being in the present is of utmost importance Consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling online or in person All the best Happy to help

Hi, Pandemic has made most of our lives difficult and stressful, and people who were already affect by psychological disturbances before covid will find it even more difficult to.handle the disturbances. Stressful situations and unexpressed emotions can increase negative thoughts, sleep disturbances, irritability, frustration, easily tiring, relationship issues, loneliness, decrease interest, decrease motivation, decrease concentration and attention, body discomfort, etc. Begin to understand yourself well and the Nature around us. We are not perfect beings, hence trying to becoming perfect or forcing ourselves too much can lead to too unrealistic expectations and stressful situations. Hence we all should begin with accepting our limitations, thus leading to relax mind and platform to overcome our limitations and also state of mind to accept others limitation which will further lead to a better relationship with people around us Some of us are born with sensitive or emotional personality, they might have lot of positives, strengths, skills etc but may lack in handling emotions during stressful conditions Hence might feel very uncomfortable handling their emotions especially during an emotional outburst with near and dear ones. Such situations can lead to soured/bitter relationship and people might start ignoring you and also people or you might stay out of relationships and prefer to stay lonely. This might enter into a vicious cycle and can influence your personality, decrease happiness quotient and sense of loneliness and abandonment can creep in.

Need to be evaluated