I fell that people are easily controlling me and making me fun when I'm alone I cant think about next I feel so many flashbacks and I m going mad after thinking about them I can't properly handle my present situation I want to set my goals but I feel so bad I forget all what I did and what I talked and when I talk to people I fell bad emotions inside me . I wanted to change it but 1st I feel like that only then I try to change but I think they it or not but I feel sad about my bad vibes.