Hello, The narrations doesnt reflect its a relationship by choice anymore,its more of an imposed relation. This might lead to further mental disturbances on your part.

Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Any relationship will be successful and long Lasting only when there is trust, open communication and give&take among partners. If any of these  is shaken, then it takes a major efforts to regain the confidence. In your cases, you need to give a try and openly speak to him about your concern and expectation. If you can't do by yourself , then take a counseling help to get yourself ready to decide what you want. Then call him also for a counseling session to decide what's best for both of you considering a long term relationship. All best.

Hello, From the above brief, its clear that you are suffering from low self-esteem, to begin with. The fact that you are being abused, but still defining that 'he loves me' hints that you may also have some inferiority complex (is it the weight?) within you to allow yourself to be victimized. I sense that both you and him have some emotional back log (emotional trauma from the past) due to which you & him both are not able to identify and define healthy emotional bonding and parameters of love. I suggest you first start working on empowering your self-esteem (self-worth) where you get started in feeling good about your self. If you can't do it yourself then seek the help of a psychological counselor, who will help you see & build the good in you and thereby help you emotionally empower yourself. Once your self-esteem upscales, then and only then you will gain the strength to assert your bf to back off and stop emotionally bullying you. Best Wishes, Stay Positive!