I have confidence and trust issues with my family, I am a child who is never trusted within her family with her own decisions, I'm not autonomous and mostly doubtful, I usually feel like an emotional wreck, I don't think i can talk about this to anybody in my family and friends because i have a fear they might mock me or leave me alone, I m never trusted by my family regarding decision. I don't trust them to be fair with me regarding my choices, I even feel that I should go far far away from here, I sometimes have suicidal tendencies but I'm too scared to kill myself... But somehow I'm certain at times that nothing good can become of me.. I'm not a fit person, not fit to live life happily