Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Any relationship failures will take  min 6 months to a year time to accept and adjust and move on. It also depends on individuals emotional strength, environment and lifestyle. Looks like you still a guidance to overcome this failures. Don't hesitate to take a professional counselling support and discuss your problem. I am sure you will be able see a different prepective about yourself and will find ways to come out of this heartache.