I sympathize with your distress and i understand how KP can be frustration with the recurrence and the marks it leaves behind. Although it takes time , but in majority cases it can be controlled and improved. If cream/lotions and capsules are not enough , we can further add laser or peels to achieve better response. I am not sure how to advice more through this response, but for now I would recommend visiting a qualified dermatologist to discuss and tackle your situation better. Hope this was helpful or somewhat informative.