Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. All your symptoms are clear sign of depression. When you are emotionally disturbed, your mind will be clogged with negative thoughts. So don't be conclusive and take any hasty decisions.
Instead ask for help. Take a counseling support. Ventilate your feelings, emotions and concerns. Surely you will get a clarity and direction to recover from such depression.
Next Steps
Don't hesitate to consult a Psychologist directly or online. Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo app chat for further evaluation and recommendation that you can follow practically to overcome this problem. Be positive. You will be alright soon.