Hi, I am so sorry to hear about what you’re going through but help is at hand and you are not alone. What you’re experiencing is loneliness coz of no friends, no support. Also, the absences are due to what? Why are you scared of going to school? The crying and no motivation are also partly due to no support system. Have you been through a trauma recently? You definitely need Counselling to help you through this period. Pls reach me and we can work together to help you get better. Till then pls try to get into an exercise regime, eat your meals on time, get back to school, Breathe mindfully. . No one will harm you, you are safe. Get your life back in order. Start living and stop fearing. Good luck, feel better soon.