After reading about ADHD, I've started to feel like some defective human. My whole life is constantly pursing different hobbies, not sticking any one particular. I'm usually anxious and I feel like an outsider who cannot communicate with anyone.. even myself. Everyday my brain is onto some new idea or seeking some new high whether it be porn, cigarettes or binge eating to feel numb and pass out. Suicidal ideation has been a regular thought pattern and it has been in my mind for years now. Anyway I feel impulsive, uncontrollable, asocial and depressed but through my own will. This has been going on since my childhood. So what is this ..ADHD, depression or anxiety?