Hello,
I can get a fair idea about what is happening to you. You definitely require an intervention so that the problems especially the memory problems are solved at the earliest.
With the description given, there are possibilities of you having a depressive disorder.
Next Steps
you should either visit a psychiatrist or take an online consultation for adequate management of your symptoms.
Health Tips
You need not worry as all these can be treated with medications aur therapies to a large extent.