Hello mam, sorry for you loss.
What you are going through is grief reaction, it's a very normal human response to any loss.
You are in denial - unable to accept the loss which is very normal in grief.
Also you have act of commission - that you are somehow responsible for the sons loss - which is also very normal in grief.
Usually it takes time for grief to resolve. Give it some time, once it resolves you could able to have a normal emotional regulation, relations and responsibilities.
If you couldn't able to handle it please consult with a psychiatrist.
Thank you.
Answered2020-08-10 08:46:51
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