Hi. For your age, you should be studying some course. So you need to concentrate on your studies. Come to a conclusion if you have chose a subject of your choice or Ur parent's choice. Never think negatively. You might feel all things are not in right order for you. But you will win gradually. Understanding life is vital. Face challenges when u feel u r in a loop. Dont try to escape instead try to manage Ur situation. If u dont foresee Ur critical situation then it's hard to live. You were born for a reason. Try to get satisfied. Or else you have to meet a counsellor to come out of your problems.