Hi there, I totally get what u r going thru. It is the situation and just not u which is testing all u guys. Being angry and irritable is just a sign of an unsettled mind. Distress is as painful for others as it is for ur ownself... Though the reasons may differ but the outcome is same. Sometimes we r so much under pressure from our own insecurities and fears dat our perception of a situation is not promotion. It's not usual for one to experience such situations in life. So difficult times call for difficult measures. Seeking professional help at this point may not change the difficult situation but it will certainly equip u with right set of skills which will enable u to tide over these circumstances. U can see a psychiatrist of ur choice inorder to get things in perspective. Hope this helps but feel free to consult further. Take care of ur self and those who care for u.