I am Occupational Therapist and upcoming Psycholist from Delhi Moolchnd hospital
As occupational therapists also deals withwntal hath conditions I must suggest visit an knowledgeable OT soon and get advice if u can consult me I can also talk to u and do counselling for u
But before just try to stop this negative thought of ending ur life
Next Steps
START doing ur Favorite activities hobbies for just few minute only but try to engage ur self in these activities and try to be socially active I me a go for marriage party birthday party and for vacations then u will definitely get some positivity and we can go for counselling sessions