Beside your description of problem, your mental status examination is required. You should consult a clinical psychologist to get evaluated and be advised accordingly.

Hi... Please answer few questions :- 1. Were both of you living in a Residential Institute Campus away from your home towns when this relationship happened? 2. Did you came into a relationship to avoid being alone or not without an emotional support? 3. Did he always had romantic feelings about you or they developed after spending so much time with you? There is no right or wrong in such situations. We are humans and we act based on our needs and impulses. That relationship was serving some purpose for both of you that's why it developed and it was necessary for both of you to grow. Now, maybe it not serving any purpose for either or both of you so it is falling apart. We can't make someone, or even ourselves, love the other person. What we can do best is to be honest about our feelings, within ourselves and with the other person about what we can or can't do for the other person in a given scenario. Judgments and regrets are a human condition which may not be completely avoided. They can only be moderated with honesty and commitment.

Hello dear I can understand what you might be feeling. Having low self esteem really damages a lot of chances for us to feel something for others because usually we detach our feelings from others as we are scared of getting hurt by our loved ones. On the other hand, it is very brave of you to give yourself a chance to feel something by coming into a relationship. But this habit of yours that you developed when you were at the phase of low self-esteem may still be stopping you from feeling connections. There could be many other reasons that might be causing this hesitation in you. You don't have to worry much. Contact a Counsellor or Psychologist now. You can also contact me and I will help you to get through this and in finding your solutions. You got this!

Relax yourself.Take deep breath.Prepare yourself to talk to your best friend.As both are matured,you can understand each other.Time heals every thing.Time should come,until then we have to wait.Meanwhile,you can prepare yourself to be yourself and talk to him. Think positive,think perspective.