Hello, Relax... There is a solution for everything... Ok... I didn't get the background of your first question... 2. It's not important always and feasible always that everyone understands your point of view.. You should do and say whatever you feel if it's not affecting your conscience or your relationship with others..ok.. As per description you appear to be depressed.. Talk to someone close or senior who understands your point of view... Why you are scared of visiting a Psychiatrist.. Many times its professional help one needs.. You can discuss and decide line of treatment that suits you.. Ok.. It will help for sure