Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help. I can understand your suitation. You need decide your priorities and expectations in life clear before you Shortlist who is your life partner. I know with all these emotions disturbance, you can't decide that easy. In such suitations, it's better to ask for help.
You may need a guidance of marriage counseling support to evaluate your suitation in detail to identify the right approach.
Next Steps
Consult a marriage counselor directly or online to do a pre marriage assessments.
Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo app for further detailed evaluation and recommendation.