Hello Friend, thanks for reaching out here for help. I can understand your suitation. As you mentioned that you are depressed for very long, it slowly Influencing your body with additional pain and unhealthy symptoms. So it's important to figure out what's the root cause for your depression and work on the solution. As you are mind in upset and weak, it better you take some help. First consult a psychology counselor to assess your current situation. He will help you with the next steps to follow and slowly you can recover. If you hesitate to go out and meet, choose online counseling. It's effective..

Get urself admitted in Psychiatry hospital. Get proper counseling and medicines. It will surely help in recovery