Hi team, in 2017 I made a biggest wrong decision of my life by choosing a course and college which I had no interest in and leaving a much better college. That decision changed my life and since then I am studying and working in something which I have no interest in. Every single day and every single hour thinking about leaving that better college and my wrong decision put me in depressed state of mind. I only have thoughts like what if I choose that better college I would have been more successful, more happy and could be in profession which I love to work in. My current work which I don't like, fear of job loss and financial responsibilities made my life more devastating that I only get sucidial thoughts. Moreover I had lost 1-2 years of my life by being unemployed and to be in something which I don't like. The insecurity of my wrong decision have put me in condition where I can't change anything. With every single day passing by I am only thinking that I am wasting my time.