Hello dear, The description provided by you here is suggestive of a negative emotional and psychological state, with a probable depressive episode. Hence I would strongly suggest and urge you to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and treatment. The episode of self harm worries me about your clinical condition, however it is heartening to know that you understand your condition as a disease and are willing to seek help. A well trained psychiatrist will be well versed with Bio-psycho-social aspects of the disorder and can plan a management strategy to help you. Please be well assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment. Usually a combination of medication and psychotherapy is well suited for such conditions. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future. Regards Delhi Mind Clinic