Yes probably you are suffering from mod to severe chronic or recurrent depression as you were suicidal once and may be now also. But I think your history should be clarified to confirm the type of depression you have then only a psychiatrist can plan a treatment. To me, still there are many options as you were most probably inadequately treated. So you should not give up your hope. Please consult an experienced neuropsychiatrist who can properly guide you. Along with medical management you should consult a clinical psychologist for CBT.
Answered2019-09-12 17:48:47
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