My boyfriend had been cheating over me with some other girl  for 4 months. Then he suddenly realised that he is making a mistake and he blocked her from everywhere. The girl got angry and she told me all the truth. When I asked my boyfriend he started crying and said that it was never his mistake. He never did anything willingly. She forced him to do everything. But I know that he is very good at lying and manipulating people. I don't have any believe on what he said. Still I forgave him just cause I love him so much and I can't imagine my life without him. He too tries to heal me and does everything that he can to make me happy but things are not working out. I always live in stress. Those things always hover over my mind and I just start to cry and hate myself and want to die. I don't know how to be happy. I just feel low whole day. I get irritated. I get annoyed. I just want to end my life.