One of the most distressing aspects of my current state is the frequent suicidal thoughts I experience. These thoughts are overwhelming and persistent, making it unsafe for me to be left alone. The risk of self-harm is ever-present, necessitating close monitoring and intervention to ensure my safety.My memory issues are particularly troubling. I struggle with both sensory and short-term memory. Tasks that require immediate recall or involve sensory input are especially challenging. Moreover, I’ve begun to forget long-term memories, which adds to my anxiety and sense of instability. This decline in cognitive function has had a profound impact on my daily life and academic performance. The inability to remember important information and events affects my confidence and ability to function effectively in various settings.