Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help. Don't be conclusive without exploring all the options . When your are confused or depressed don't think of any hasty decisions. Instead ask for help.
Take a professional marriage counselling support to handle such dispute and understanding issue. I am sure you can overcome this problem if you are willing to discuss.
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