I dont know how to describe my situation. I just dont feel like going to work or doing anything at all during the day apart from the lying on the bed. There have been a lot of instances in my life that keeps coming in my mind and for some reason i cant take it off my head. Every single day i try to think for a motive that can keep me going but the voice inside me keeps telling that i cant do it anymore. Earlier, i used to think there is a way out from every problem, but since last couple of years, the only solution i feel is killing myself. I know thats not the right option and considering how my family would be affected (though at times i question myself if i would really matter). I mean, it would be a matter of a week or month maybe and they will all go on with their lives. I dont know how but i have come to a point that i keep checking for different ways to committ suicide. Its not like there are certain days i feel like this, its every single day.