Thank you for being so open and honest about what you’re experiencing. From what you’ve shared, it’s clear that you’re dealing with a complex mix of low mood, emotional numbness, social anxiety, self-doubt, memory issues, and chronic overthinking—all of which are deeply affecting your confidence, daily functioning, and sense of purpose.
As a counseling psychologist, I want you to know that what you are going through is not uncommon—and more importantly, it is treatable. What you’re describing sounds very consistent with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder, possibly combined with social anxiety and low self-esteem rooted in deeper cognitive patterns.
What’s Likely Happening Psychologically:
1. Depression often shows up not just as sadness, but as emotional numbness, fatigue, difficulty concentrating, loss of pleasure in activities, and feelings of hopelessness—all of which you’re reporting.
2. Anxiety—especially social anxiety—can cause intense self-consciousness, fear of judgment, overthinking, and avoidance (e.g., phone calls, driving, job applications).
3. Cognitive distortions, such as all-or-nothing thinking, mind-reading, and self-comparison, are very common in people who feel like they’re “failing” or “not good enough.”
These are not signs of weakness. They are signs your nervous system is overwhelmed, and your inner world is calling for healing, not punishment.
You’re not broken. What you are experiencing is a mental health condition—not a personal flaw. With the right support, you will come out of this, often with a deeper understanding of yourself and life. You don’t have to figure everything out today. You just have to take one healing step forward.
If you’re open to it, I can help guide you
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