This must be a very distressing time in your life. From what I can tell, you wake up in an anxious state after going through a tough time. You might wake up to an uneasiness, racing heart, palpitations, and a general feeling that all is not okay. It may even feel like you won't ever feel normal again.
It is important to explore why that situation caused such an anxious reaction in your life. Moreover, I recommend you consult a psychiatrist if you think medication is necessary.
Next Steps
Seek counselling. Consult a Psychiatrist.