Hi. I can understand what you must be going through. However, it's important in life to focus on oneself rather than what others do. We can't change how others will think or behave. We can only change the way we respond. You definitely seem to have lots of unresolved conflicts within. Please consult a psychiatrist or a psychologist and get yourself evaluated.
Next Steps
Consult a psychiatrist or a psychologist.
Health Tips
Start exercising daily. Star writing diary daily in order to vent out your feelings and emotions.