Hi dear,
You need to visit a counsellor or a psychologist for guiding you.
Incase you want to visit us.you can book an appointment
The answer to the way you feel is that you need to fix this to fix your life and get it back on track.you have the will,you just need little professional help and dont come to conclusion that you have this or that.
Just go to a Counsellor or a psychologist for right guidance and help.
Next Steps
Please visit a professional counsellor or psychologist
Health Tips
Dont neglect your mental health it is the most important thing you have,take your chances and find answers to your fears and doubts