Hello, This is a common problem in a abusive relationships. women all over the world live with the hope that their partner will change . unfortunately, such changes seldom happen and many women succumb to violence related injuries. There is a term used called the " cycle of violence " which explains the phenomenon of women ignoring self preservation and living in a abusive relationship. Please read about it. All it takes is a firm decision to live your life without stress. Please make a choice SOON.