Adopted at 4.5 yrs. Went through several "trial runs" with prospective parents. Never felt connected. My first night in my new "home", I came downstairs and was asked what was I doing. I responded that: "I just wanted to know if you were still here" I inherently knew there was a relationship problem between my adoptive parents. You go through 5 parents, u pick up on these subtle cues. I have sabotaged numerous promising relationships. Now I feel im doing them a favour by remaining single