Hi dear thanks for query. I understand you might be experiencing rough phase of life. But it doesn't mean that is the end, sometimes negative phase do teach us many things in life. We need to be in a position to understand it. I appreciate your step that you tried sharing something in this forum, that itself is self working for better side.
First you inculcate the hope within you, then in others or not it's ok. Just try to share your emotions to someone experts, then you will the path to move further. Take care stay positive.
Next Steps
At earliest try to visit psychologist in your place. You can contact them through online also.
Health Tips
Try to share your emotions to whom you feel comfortable, start enjoying small things which you have done better performance, your skills are plenty try to identify.