U have develop phobia and it also may further causes other problems like OCD.I think u have anxiety and over mental stress.
Due to these ur self confidence level is going down.
U must consult psychologist online or offline and describe all ur present problems and ur mental health status thrn by the help of counselling and psychotherapy u can learn how to deal with such conditions in life.
Next Steps
dont be panic.
share ur thoughts to ur doctor,psychologist, close friends and family.
do not discuss these topic everytime with every one.
do not ask help from ur social site friends.
u can watch how to deal phobia in youtube..
best wishes...
feel free to contact when needed.