You are stressed and over burdened. Please see a psychologist and get the guidelines to deal with it . Don’t delay . Suicidal thoughts are an indication that you are feeling helpless .
Next Steps
A good psychologist will give you tools to fight your situation and all will be sorted .
Health Tips
Don’t worry and see a psychologist at earliest . You can opt for a chat session with any psychologist on Practo , if you cannot visit .