Hello doctor, I'm suffering from excessive nightfall from last 9 years. I was 14 years old when I first experience this. I did masturbated excessively when I was unaware of negatives of masturbation. I use to squeeze my private part very hard. But once I got aware of negatives of masturbation. I immediately stopped it but eversince then, my life has become hell. I did got exposed to porn when I was 9 years old & I do believe it has really affected my brain. Now I don't watch porn, I don't masturbate but I have problem of paraphilia. I experience extreme urges to watch women. I do get turn on very easily. My sex drive is extremely high. I am facing this mental block to watch women and women. My eyes just want to see women flesh. This thing is impacting my life very negatively and I am looking for suicide. Is there other way out. Please help me.