Hello, The description provided by here is suggestive of Obsessive compulsive disorder. However a in person, face to face interview will be required to assess the problems in depth. Hence my suggestion for you is to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and treatment. The objectives of assessment are to establish a clear diagnosis, understand the correlates of the problems and diagnosis, make a detailed management plan, and subsequently execution of the plan with regular review. However please be assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future..