I need to know what is happening to me and panic me specially when i am alone , many things come to my mind and i cant manage them they are uncontrollable they took my concentration they attack me every time i try to focus on sth and the i have manic behavior in a moment i am full of energy and in next one feel so exhausted and depressed i cant trust anyone even my mother or my sister i always think that they want to do sth that bothers me and about the first i told the things that bothers me are some pictures of my past that i got embarrassed but i have to say sth that these thing are always not embarrassing in reality but i think they are and make me feel to die