Hi dere, Going through the list of ur problems just shows how much u r going through. These r pretty much the problem of many teenagers these days and it feels like loosing control over self. But its just dat this entropy of thoughts and expectations and emotions which is complicating it all. If u think u r not able to control then u need to consult a psychiatrist or psychologist who can guide u in enabling ur control over situation and self. I hope this helps but still feel free to consult further. Thank u.